Tuesday, Feb. 28th
I got back last night from Oklahoma City. It was a great four day trip to refocus and reset my mind. I really enjoyed seeing all of my co-workers and it did a world of good to be solely an employee for a few days...not a mother, not a wife, not a patient. I did nothing other than sit in meeting, rest and sleep. Every time I called Rob, he was in a great mood-- just loving every minute with Rachel. He did not lash out at me once, much different than my trip to Florida last year. I could breathe and not worry for the first time in a long time. Rob has been absolutely wonderful; he came home early from work on Thursday last week so I could get done some packing and last minute things. He has been helpful and supportive. I feel like I have a partner and an ally. I am thinking that the reduced anxiety level can only help this baby. I went to the PDC today and had good results... 3.3 s/d ratio (normal), 138 heart beat, 12 cm amniotic fluid. Everything was great. Dr. Carr suggested that I use some guided imagery or meditation to help the baby grown. I am enough of a tree hugger to believe in that... so that is exactly what I am going to do!